Not Dead Yet

Last night I found myself at a silly little crossroads. I received a notice that one of my dating-related accounts was up for renewal. Now, as you can imagine, I haven’t logged into any dating accounts in almost 2 months. A fact I feel bad about as I just disappeared on some guys mid-conversation. But… I was sick and the last thing on my mind was dating.

So last night I had a decision to make. Do I just opt out for a little longer?  Or renew with the idea that it would push me to get back into things?

I chose the latter.

I’m still not physically up to dating. Hell, today I had a mini-celebration because I took a lunchtime walk around the block. But I WANT to be up to dating soon. I want to date. I miss guys.  I don’t necessarily miss all the bullshit that goes with dating. But I miss the company of men. The flirting and the potential of more.

So I renewed. And maybe, hopefully, sometime very soon I’ll login and send apologies to those guys I disappeared on. And maybe find some new prospects.

I’m not dead yet.