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6 Weeks

I’ve had a rough 6 weeks.

Understatement. I’ve had a really crappy six weeks.

And although it makes me feel kinda queasy, I want to share the why behind it, in the hopes that some people can relate, identify, whatever. Because I know that sometimes I feel very alone in this shit.

As any regular reader of this blog knows, I’m not the healthiest kid on the block. I never have been. I was one of those kids who was taking everyday medicine from a pretty early age. BUT, I don’t have any fatal or potentially fatal diseases and for that I feel blessed. Whatever.

Anyway…anyone who’s ever dealt with any chronic illness or condition knows that doctors can only do so much. They can prescribe medicine for you to take, but not every medicine works for every person. And sometimes medicines randomly stop working. And, worse, sometimes medicines have horrible side effects. I’m gonna stop ya right there… I’ve spent literally thousands of dollars over the years on alternative remedies and have never stopped trying. You name it, I’ve tried it. Hell, you wouldn’t believe the things I’ve tried. Seriously, you WOULD NOT believe the things I’ve tried. Including all kinds of diets and what not.  

So, that past 6 weeks. My doctor and I had a pow wow about me needing a new medicine because one of the ones I’ve been taking for the past decade doesn’t seem to work so well anymore and besides the side effects suck, and they seem to be getting worse every year.  So she started me on something new.

I’ve had a rough 6 weeks.

The side effects were beyond bad. There were days I couldn’t, really couldn’t, get out of bed. Thank goodness for my friends.

My doctor tinkered with my dosage a few times, because the drug did show some promise. But we couldn’t make it work for me. I stopped being me. I couldn’t write. I couldn’t move. I couldn’t live my life.

I was back at the doctor yesterday. And I’m stopping the drug. Slowly. It’s going to take a couple weeks to slowly go off of it. And now I’m starting something else. Giving it a 6 week try. I have no hope that it will work. I’ve been on dozens (so many dozens that I couldn’t list them all if I tried) of drugs over the past few decades. Most don’t work. All I can hope for are minimal side effects.

So that’s it. That’s why I haven’t been around here, or twitter or facebook much. I’ve been doing what I can when I have a burst of energy. I’m hoping to be back to myself  in a week or so.  I know that there are many people out there that understand what I’m talking about. The endless trial and error of drugs and new drugs in the hopes of having a decent, functional life. It’s not a lot of fun. But we’re lucky to live in a time and place to have these resources. Or something like that.



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  1. Hang in there, my friend! I have dealt with chronic problems for a long time, one since I was a kid. In the last year or so, it’s gotten worse, and surgery is my only option. If I have it now, I’ll probably have to have it at least once more (not a permanent fix) so I’m holding off.

    Health is truly a gift, and those who have it take it for granted. Try to stay hopeful that the meds will work with minimal, manageable side effects. Fingers crossed.
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    • Simone Grant says:

      Indeed, health is truly a gift. And honestly, I have to remind myself to not get frustrated by all those people who take it for granted (and their insensitivity to those of us who are less blessed). My fingers crossed that your surgery goes well!

  2. Jane says:

    I have been through similar circumstances in the past. I hope they find something that works for you soon. Take care of yourself!
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  3. Country Girl says:

    I’m sorry the past six weeks haven’t been great and hope you get feeling better dear! Here’s to the next six weeks being better for ya! :)

  4. Spinsterlicious says:

    Sucks. I hope you’re feeling like your old self and back at it soon

    -The Spinsterlicious Life
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    • Simone Grant says:

      It does indeed suck. But last night I went out to dinner with a friend for the first time since this misery started and had a yummy meal and I was almost like my old self (except my appetite and metabolism are still all messed up). I can actually see the light at the end of the tunnel, which is EVERYTHING right now.

  5. Roxanne says:

    I’m sorry. I hope you feel better soon. Finding the right meds is not always easy.
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