Not feeling real articulate right now. It’s not that I don’t want to write. Or even that I don’t have things to write about. I just can’t seem to get my ideas together into post form. Can I blame Irene?
So here’s something that’s been going on. Or not going on. I was supposed to have a date one night early last week. Supposed to. But I wasn’t entirely feeling it. And then the day came. And I was busy with work. So I asked myself, Why am I going on this date tonight?
My answer: Because I want to start dating again.
Not: He seems like a cool guy and I want to go out with him. Honestly, I was feeling really iffy about him.
* He doesn’t live in the city, and his ‘burb is far-ish and not so easy to get to.
* He scheduled our first date around a business meeting, which was fine-ish. I guess. But we were getting together kind of late on a Monday night (just down the block from his meeting). And I’m so tired of having relationships scheduled around guys’ strange work schedules
* That’s enough.
So I called and cancelled a few hours before our date. I apologized profusely and blamed work. Which was mostly true. I was really busy. And just not enthusiastic enough about getting together with him to rush through all the stuff I had to do.
I should mention that I got his vm. And that he called me back hours later, about 15 minutes after we were supposed meet. I felt bad, thinking that he’d been waiting for me. He said it was cool and we set a day/time for a reschedule. And then he said he’d follow up by email.
He never followed up. Neither did I. I don’t think the date’s going to happen. I don’t really care.
I’d made a foolish promise to myself that I’d start to take dating seriously again. And that as part of that, I’d go out on at least one date a week (pretty lightweight for the old me). And check my online dating inboxes regularly. Even do some searches and send out some messages (I am 41, and my inbox doesn’t get as much action as it used to). But that promise lasted less than 2 weeks. It’s not that I don’t have the time. I could make the time. I just get so easily annoyed by it all. By the silliness of it all. The ridiculous guys using the same photos for past 5+ years (because as crappy as my memory is, I recognize some of them). And the BAD profiles and the horrible pickup-y messages.
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