Just in case you’re new around here – a couple of factoids:
* A few years ago, I walked away from a stable, relatively successful career. I didn’t have a concrete plan for what I’d do next. I just had some vague idea that I wanted to make my living as a writer.
* I’ve always loved traveling alone. My first solo trip involved me, at 19, taking off for Europe with a backpack and a one-way ticket. I figured I’d eventually find my way home. And I did, a few months later.
These factoids are not evidence of my courage. Just random snippets of my life, my real life, outside of the blog/dating. I don’t think of myself as a particularly brave person. If anything, I wish I were a bit more courageous. But, I could never live with myself if I let myself be motivated (or demotivated) by fear. I guess you could say that one of my core beliefs is to never EVER allow fear to shrink my life.
Speaking of which… I’ve gotten a little complacent lately. With dating. I just restarted the dating game, doing the online thing, and already I feel it. I’m ignoring my inbox, going days without checking in. And my excuse - I went on a few dates last week… Or was it the week before?
I’ve stopped pushing myself. Stopping doing things that require real work and effort. And part of that, I have to admit, is about fear. Fear of being hurt again.
So, I’m going to have to get over myself. Admit (here to you, which is bigger and scarier than admitting it to just myself) that I’ve been a real turkey lately. And start making an honest effort.
No more excuses.
Tags: career, dating, plan