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Ready, Set, Date. Oh wait, I’m not ready, yet.

Let’s recap, shall we?  I’m recovering from the cold from that had me apt-bound for over 3 weeks and am moving later this week (from the apt I’ve lived in for over 8 years to a nicer but considerably smaller apt in the same neighborhood).

So no from any of that.

And it’s been months since I’ve been on an actual date (playdates with the fb don’t count). I’m getting restless. I miss having a goddamn life. I miss meeting new people, putting on cute clothes, lipstick and dating.

And I’m thinking, hey, I’m nearly well.  Maybe, after my move, I’ll be able to start dating again. That would be so totally awesome.


So… here’s the thing. And it’s kind of embarrassing/ridiculous. I’m feeling really insecure, all of sudden, about my appearance. Being has meant a lot of lying around, sucking on cough drops all day, drinking juice… basically just gobbling up sugar and burning none of it.  Leaving me the most out of shape I’ve been in years.  Not that any of my friends (the ones I’ve seen in the past month) would notice as I’ve been wearing the same couple of empire waisted tops and dressed, over and over.  But seriously, I no longer have a waistline and none of my jeans fit. Not even the fat jeans.

Anyway, it’s an issue.  I don’t like the way I look and that is totally eating into my self-esteem.  I’ll deal with it, somehow.  Stop eating so much sugar, find a way to get out more and walk.  Something.  Because I really do miss dating and I don’t know if I can successfully put myself out there feeling as yucky as I do about looking in the mirror.  I don’t know.  First things first: I still have to move. And finish getting healthy. I’ll deal with my lack of a waistline sometime next week.

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6 to “Ready, Set, Date. Oh wait, I’m not ready, yet.”

  1. Give yourself about a half hour of walking a day, just to burn something.

    Hey, those of us not thrilled with what the mirror shows can relate. But I have a feeling you’ll have yourself up and running in no time.

    Just bear in mind, this time is about those changes in your life that you’re making. It really isn’t time to date. I know you’re restless, but first things first.

  2. Scarlett says:

    Don’t worry babe you’ll be back on your feet and into the gym in no time! Also – you know it only takes a few trips to the gym before your endorphins are so high that you feel like you can conquer the world of denim AND the greater world at large!

  3. Cougel says:

    You’ll get back to the you u love in no time! One foot in front of the other, one step at a time. Glad you’re feeling better!

  4. Kelly says:

    I’m at that point now about my body. I haven’t been careful lately, and it becomes a vicious cycle. I did yoga this morning and feel better. It’s a start. But yes, it is hard to meet people when you’re not feeling 100%.

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  6. rimjhim says:

    I am in love with this blog, the most important this is you are genuine. But one point to mention here, don’t hide yourself in a closet, remember you are wasting time in there. Stop taking yourself seriously, go out and do what you want. My affection for this blog is because i was like you few years back. Then i changed myself and yes everything changed. I am enjoying my life more than ever.