I should probably mention that I’m writing this from a friend’s terrace (or maybe it’s a balcony), 17 stories high above a (unnamed) city. And that I’m afraid of heights. So I’m kinda scared. I used to be deathly afraid of heights. Too-afraid-to-hang out-on-the-roof-of-my-building-on-a-nice-night, afraid. Over the years my fear of heights has kept me from doing a lot of things that I really wanted to do. Like skiing. I’ve never been skiing because I’m afraid of the lifts. Yes, I’m serious and I know that’s kinda pathetic but it is what it is.
I’ve been trying to get over it. Fear, from my perspective, is a crappy motivator. So when I have the opportunity to push myself on the heights thing, I do. Like today. I’m working from my friend’s terrace. Even though it’s freaking me out and I can’t completely concentrate.
I’m hoping that I’ll get used to it. Or I won’t and in a few hours I’ll go back inside knowing that at least I tried (and got to enjoy today’s glorious weather).
Anyway, today is Wednesday and so that means I’m supposed to do a poll. And since I’ve been out of town for the past week or so I figured I’d work with that topic.
I’ve been taking solo vacations/traveling on my own since I was a teenager (kind of an awesome story, for another time). It seems natural to me. It also seems natural to visit friends, travel with friends, travel with a boyfriend – I guess I don’t see one type of vacation as superior to another. For the record, I was alone last week (borrowing a friend’s house by the ocean) and am visiting friends this week.
I’m always caught off guard when I have people question me after/before/during a trip, “you’re on your own?” as if flying and traveling solo were this awful thing. I have a cousin who, every time we speak, says, “I wish I could be more independent, like you” as if independence were a trait like height. I always respond the same way, “if you want to be independent be independent”. But I know she won’t. She’s a woman in her 40s who’s never done a single thing on her own. Eat dinner in a restaurant, go to the movies, whatever…
There is a poll question here. Somewhere. Oh yeah, what about you? Traveling alone, do you do it? Have you done it? Would you?
Tags: fear, travel