I didn’t need the whole week. Yesterday morning I woke up and knew. As much as I wanted to make things work with M, I couldn’t.
M was saying all the right things, but nothing had actually changed. And I was never going to be willing to settle for what he had to offer. Never.
That guy I met and fell in love with, the guy who made me feel safe, the guy who said to me, “You’re a priority for me” and then backed it with actions – I’m not sure he ever really existed. Maybe M was pretending to be someone else. Someone with real character. But that guy doesn’t exist anymore.
The details of our 5 day experiment are petty and I don’t really want to get into them here. No good can come of that.
Here’s a good thing, I’m not crushed. Really, I’m not. I do think I’ve learned a lot from letting him back in, even for this short time. It allowed me to remember the good things I got from our relationship and also the bad things that I need to be on the look out for. The stuff I absolutely won’t tolerate ever again. EVER. And now I’m ready to move on. I finally figured out how to send any and all email from his address straight to trash. *deep breath*
“There’s one thing I want to say, so I’ll be brave
You were what I wanted
I gave what I gave
I’m not sorry I met you
I’m not sorry it’s over
I’m not sorry there’s nothing to save”
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