Observant readers will have noticed that my blog looks different today than it did a couple of days ago. Columns have shifted, pages have disappeared, fonts have changed. But please, don’t get too used to the way it looks today. It’s still in transition. There are plenty of changes to come.
And yes, this is all driving me nuts. I want it to be done with. Yesterday. Who am I kidding? I want it to be done with last year. I have no patience whatsoever when it comes to things like this.
Not that I have anything to complain about. I have amazing people working on the project. And it was my choice to move to WP before all of the details were cleaned up, rather than have everything perfect first.
The problem is me and my lack of patience. I rushed into moving too soon. And now I’m freaking out, every second of every day, because it’s not done yet. For the record, I’m telling myself to just chill. That the deadline is January 31st and there’s plenty of time til then.
This does actually relate to me and how I deal with relationships, but I didn’t realize it til last night. I was talking with a friend and she was telling me about this new guy she’s been seeing. She likes him. Enough. They’ve seen each other a few times and so far so good.
But she’s anxious.
And she says she always feels anxious at this stage of new relationships.
And I can totally relate. Because when you’ve only seen someone a few times and you like them but aren’t SURE, it’s hard to know how much of yourself to invest. Hard to know how much you should care. How much you should try.
At least that’s the way it is for me.
And I tend to get rather impatient about it. Tend to freak out a bit. Because I want to know RIGHT AWAY if a guy is worth my emotional investment. And that rarely happens (and when it does happens it’s always meant trouble ahead).
Anyway, I told her I understood because I totally do. That new relationship anxiety really sucks.
I really need to give meditation another try.