I did meet one man during my free weekend on Match. We’ve been emailing just about every day, and earlier this week he asked me out for Friday (last) night. I said no. I had 2 things on my calendar for last night and was looking forward to both – a party and a friend’s comedy show. I said I’d love to see him another time and now we’re working on that ‘other time’. We’ll see. I know how these things go.
Then last night came around and I was so busy with work that I ended up staying home and working. I have a lot of little things I’m working on. And a few big things. I’m hoping to be able to tell you about some of them by early next week. Anyway, I was so focused on the work that I didn’t even realize that last night was the Dollhouse season premier and I could’ve been watching it in the background. Thank god for Hulu.
Truth is, all morning I’ve been thinking like maybe I need to accept the fact that work needs to come first right now. Work and family. And least for a few weeks. That I don’t have that little bit of extra energy it takes to put myself out there and date.
I don’t know. It’s probably just the insomnia getting to me. I just feel like I have too much going on. And like I’m sinking under the weight of it all. And quite frankly, I just don’t think I have enough energy to do everything that needs to be done. Which is kind of funny, in a way, because no one is asking me to do it. I’m the one who’s put me in this situation. Anyway, I just thought I’d share that because I thought that maybe some of my readers could relate. Especially my single readers.
There is something unbelievably exhausting about trying to live the life you’re dreaming for yourself, creating it from nothing, with almost no support.
And now to change the subject to something even more embarrassing (more embarrassing than that, how is that possible, you ask?), I have this silly little widget over on the right side of my page, in the middle. It’s from Divine Caroline, for their Love This Site contest. I was nominated, along with lots of other great sites (including Lostplum, who is currently kicking ass and is in second place, totally awesome!). I feel weird about stuff like this, but I figured why not as I’m already being pathetic today. It’d be cool if some of you could vote for me. It’s kind of a drag because you have to register with Divine Caroline and that takes a few minutes, but you can elect to not receive any of their emails, etc. And you can vote for more than one site, so hint hint, you can vote for me and Lostplum. I did.
This concludes today’s pathetic rambling. I promise to get my shit together ASAP.
Tags: insomnia, Match, single