The Universe Is Looking Out for Me (Again)
I don’t believe in much (don’t be shocked, it’s not like it’s the first time I’ve said that). I don’t believe in god (I consider myself a devout agnostic) or soul mates or heaven or even the Easter Bunny. But I do believe that sometimes the universe (which in my mind always translates into “The Powers That Be” because I was a huge Angel fan - geek girl alert) looks out for us.
For instance, back in April when I was laid off from that job that I didn’t really want - that was the universe looking out for me. And now, the universe has stepped in again to keep me from doing something that I wasn’t sure I should be doing.
Cupcakes & Cupid has been cancelled. Well, not cancelled – postponed. Postponed until October. And October is a long time from now.
When I was originally approached with the idea I was immediately hesitant. You all know that I work hard to try to keep my life separate from the blog. I don’t show my face here and I don’t do any of the kinds of PR that so many other bloggers do (conferences, cable TV, morning shows…). I’m 100% sure that I never want to have that public of a life.
And, well, the men I date are not the kinds of guys who’d want to date a dating blogger. They are professionals with serious, grown-up lives. And while I dream of being able to tell a guy I like about this blog (and of him being cool with it), I can’t imagine my getting many dates if I said up front that I did this for a living.
So I was hesitant. Cupcakes & Cupid was/will be a live seminar and that means me being in a room full of people who could take a picture of me and stick it online. But at the same time it just seemed like such a great opportunity for me. Like I said, I don’t do any PR for this blog. And so sometimes I feel a little lost out here in blogland. Other bloggers are out there shaking hands and getting their mugs plastered all over the web and I’m just here, typing away (ps – I feel like the luckiest girl in the world to have the readers I have. You all rock. I’m so not complaining. But the prizes, READ=advertisers & book deals, go to the people with the highest profile and not the most readers).
Anyway, I decided to go for it even though I was feeling like it might not be a smart thing to do. I was hoping that since it was a room full of women that maybe if an announcement was made asking everyone to respect my privacy that everything would be OK. I didn’t feel good about it, but I was trying to get over it because I thought it could be a good move for me career wise. That there would be good press about the event (because it would have been/will be great) and maybe some of that press would shine some light on the blog.
But the universe has stepped in. It seems that this is not a good thing for me to be doing now. For whatever reason. And I’m good with that.
I’m sure there’s a relevant dating/relationship metaphor I could draw. Some things are just not meant to be. Blah, blah, blah. Life goes on. Always.
Tags: blog, blogger, Cupcakes & Cupid, dating, geek
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Well it was for the best. Don’t fret!
Wow… I didnt realize you blogged “anonymously” as well!
I think there is a place for those of us who choose to keep our lives and blogs separate (even though they always meet on the page) Follow your instincts!
xoxo
As always, I love your honesty. Not revealing your identity–and thus getting all the prizes–gives you the highest possible level of credibility. Or at least makes you damn endearing.
Sounds like you have time to figure out the right balance
between being ananymous and expanding yourself. Yay you.
“Angel Investigations. We help the helpless”
I can empathize. I’m a very private person myself and have gone to great lengths to conceal my identity online…yet, I want to have a successful blog. Paradox, that!
Anyway, I’m sorry for the part of your lost opportunity that you’ll miss and happy for you that you’re well rid of the part you didn’t want anyway.
THANK YOU everyone for the additional boost of confidence. This whole thing has been really hard on me (in odd ways) but I’m trying to find all kinds of silver linings.
I try to do my best to listen to what the Universe is trying to tell me. I’m glad to hear you do the same! And while I’m sorry I won’t get to possibly meet you at Cupid & Cupcakes, I think we’ll have to someone get our secret identities in the same places sometimes. I already see fun, fancy masks and secret handshakes!
-Singlegal
Ooh, yes. I could use a secret handshake.
I figure the universe doesn’t step in all that often (not often enough, actually). So when it does, I listen