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I’m a Lousy Actress

So last night, after I posted my rant/post, I decided to take a long, hot shower and give myself a facial.  I figured that would help get my head into dating space.

But it didn’t work.  Neither did listening to some of my favorite snap out of it music.  My mind was stuck in a dark and gloomy place.  I had my clothes all picked out for my (jeans, very cute top, black patent peak toe pumps) and was trying to focus on the guy but I just couldn’t get my head into it.

So I rescheduled.  It’s a sucky thing to do at the last minute, but it was a late-ish date.  He was coming from something else and I was supposed to be too.  I’d thought I would be coming from a party.  But I decided to not go to the party (what with my bad mood).

He seemed cool about my need to reschedule.  I didn’t specify why.  I think we’re getting together later today.  I hope we are.

It all comes down to this – I’m a bad actress.  And I had had a really .  A was delivered to me by the universe.  I’m sure there are many other people, maybe the majority of people, who could’ve put on a fake grin and gone on their date.  Smiling the whole time and pretending that everything is fine.  I’m not one of those people.  I don’t fake it til you make it.  It’s just not in my DNA.

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3 to “I’m a Lousy Actress”

  1. Anonymous says:

    I do not think you should have to act happy when you are not. That is not healthy. I hope you are able to reschedule the date.

  2. TonyImages says:

    I have had times where I just didn’t feel up to the task or date (generally a blind date). All I wanted to do was be alone, get away, not talk to people (since I talk to people for living) but I’m often just unable cancel. Once I get there, I generally start off slow and in somewhat of bad mood.. but something always kicks in! I get happy, I get talkative, I smile and end up having a great time. Of course I’m not referring to a blind date that even in my best mood, would have ever been good. The fun ones though, I’m always glad I pulled it together and made it.

  3. Simone Grant says:

    Thanks for understanding. It’s just not something I’m good at.
    I know lots of people who are with you on this one. It just doesn’t work for me. Actually makes me feel worse inside. I did the make believe for years, for work. I had the kind of job that required me to be “on”, regardless of how I felt mentally and physically. As much as I joke about dating being a job, I know that it’s not. It’s a choice. And I choose not to be on unless I actually feel it. I don’t think there’s a right and wrong. Just different types of people.