I had a pretty awesome post all thought out for today with a link and all kinds of astute observations about people and the strange ways we act. But that’s going to have to wait, at least a day or two, maybe more. Truth is, my health has gotten a little funky again and that has me feeling blue.
I have some chronic health issues that come and go. I can feel great for months at a time. Or bad for months at a time. And stress does make it worse.
The last few months have been hard, though not unbearably so. I haven’t been in the hospital (just one day in the ER) and I’ve only had to miss a few days of work. Anyway, I’m hoping things will get better soon.
This does actually relate to my sex and dating life. I don’t tend to let guys into my health world or tell them anything about my issues until I trust them. And even then there are matters of degree. There are men I’ve known for months, who I’ve shared most everything else with, who I didn’t let see me sick. Not really sick.
I’d give just about anything to have someone be there for me when I get home tonight and take care of me. But even if I had someone in my life right now (let’s say, for example, that things worked out with Mr. Potential or with The Musician) I wouldn’t call him and ask him to come over. I wouldn’t ask for his help. I’d be home, sick, alone.
Tags: alone, needy, Sick, stress, vulnerable