Yeah, another post. I write when I’m stressed.
I was just answering your comments (Thank you to those who commented – you know how happy it makes me!!. Comments have been low and so I’m guessing you’re just not liking the recent posts?). Anyway, I was answering a comment and I wrote something that I thought was important. It’s not something new, per se. I’ve hinted at it before and I’ve said it out loud in conversations with friends.
I am so freaked out right now because things are moving at a slow, mature, appropriate pace with Mr. Potential. Let me be clear, here. I’m not stressed because I want us to be in a serious, committed relatioship already. I think he’s great guy, but I’m still not sure I want to be dating him in 2009. There are so many unknowns. So many. And that’s what’s freaking me out. The fact that there are all of these unknowns causing me to not know how much I want to invest, emotionally, in this relationship.
Mr. Potential is also unsure about things. He’s said as much. That’s why he’s keeping his online profile active.
He and I are really different in this regard. I want to dive in and unpack all of our baggage and see how he reacts to my stuff and see if I can deal with his stuff. He seems to want to drag his feet and keep things to himself. He wants to have fun. I want to have fun, too, but I want to make sure that I don’t waste a lot of time with some guy who’s entirely unsuitable for me. Been there, done that.
But conventional wisdom tells me not to push things, to not crowd him, to not scare him off. And so I am trying to let him set the pace. If he wants to plan activities that pretty much preclude us having real conversations, then so be it.
Are things clearer now? Am I allowed to be stressed out? Can people please stop telling me that it sounds like everything is going well?
Tags: Baggage, Dating update, online dating profiles